Radiation

 Since my last post, I have finished chemotherapy and begun radiation. 

I was suppose to receive 12 treatments of chemo, but during my 8th visit,  the Dr. decided to stop all treatment because my neuropathy was so bad (numbness in hands in feet). He was afraid that if we continued, the neuropathy would become permanent. My parents were out of town and I'd planned on going to that 8th visit alone. Thank the Lord, my BFF was in town and asked to go with me. Since it was my last chemo visit, I got to ring the bell to signify the end....and I didnt have to do that alone!

I waited 4 weeks with no kind of treatment, in order to allow my body to heal and side effects to alleviate. Then, on Nov 8th, I started my first radiation treatment. I go every day M-F for a 30 min appt to receive radiation to my chest (for a total of 6 weeks).

My first week is complete and so far no side effects. They say after 2 weeks I'll start noticing skin changes (redness, irritation, etc) and fatigue will set in. 

The emotional side of cancer is starting to creep in. I'm finding myself crying more. Added to that I get S.A.D. every winter. Prayers for my emotional well being would be appreciated. 

Keep chuggin along

 I havent posted in a while, because there isn't much to update y'all on. I'm still chuggin along on my chemo regiment. I'm on a weekly regiment of Taxol right now. Things are going well, with minimal side effects and no nausea. I have 7 more treatments of Taxol, a month break with no treatment, and then I'll start daily radiation around first of December. 

Thanks again for all your love and support. I havent received a "Support Squad" t-shirt photo from anyone lately.  Please keep sending those. I have recently been going to treatments alone, so those photos will help a lot. I have chemo every Tuesday afternoon. 

Onto the next...

 I finished the "red devil" chemo!!! I have now had 4 treatments of Adriamycin/Cytoxin chemotherapy.  Starting Mon, Aug 16th, I will begin weekly infusions of Taxol chemotherapy for 3 months. I received this drug 8 years ago during my first cancer treatments, and I tolerated it pretty well, so hopefully I do as well on it this time around too. 

Surprisingly,  this last treatment was the best one, as far as side effects. There were no issues during the infusion, and the only side effect afterwards was fatigue. Absolutely no nausea this time!! This was such a blessing, because it allowed me to help my mom take care of my dad after his rotator cuff surgery. 

My dad is healing well and recovering well. He had his stitches removed yesterday and had his PT consultation.  His right arm is in a sling, but he's getting around pretty easily and doing most things himself. As he is right-handed, he can't drive yet or write anything, and he needs some help getting dressed. I am impressed though with how much he is able to do already. As he has worked full time for nearly 50 years, I think he is bored sitting at home all day. I called the other day and he said he'd just woken from a nap that he took "just to pass the time".

My parents and I have been very thankful for the "Take Them A Meal" meals that have been made or delivered for us. My mom has appreciated not having to cook during this hectic time of taking care of two people. They also love the visitors!! 

Thank you all for continued support, love and prayers!

Coming up...

 I had my 3rd chemo treatment on Monday, July 19th.  This treatment went much better than the last two, as I had no complications during the infusion.  I have had little side effects this time as well.  Wednesday I was pretty nauseous and tired, but felt better the rest of the week.  I was even able to spend the weekend with my niece and nephew. My next chemo (and final round of AC), will be on Monday, August 2nd.  Don't forget to send me love and support with your "Support Squad" t-shirts.  Take a photo wearing it and send it to me, please!  It really lifts my spirits to see you all out there supporting me.

As I mentioned, my next chemo is Aug 2nd.  My father is having rotator cuff surgery (3+ month recovery) on Aug. 4th.  This is going to be a difficult time for my parents and I as my mom will have to do double duty as a caretaker for a few weeks.  She will have to take care of my dad full for a few weeks until he can start using his arm again, and then also take care of me during my recovery periods from chemo.  This is going to be a very challenging time for the 3 of us.  Therefore, it would be greatly appreciated if any local friends and family could help us out with meals during this time.  I have signed up for takethemameal.com.  Search for "Rapers" and use passcode 9798.  I have made a schedule for 6 weeks.  Anything would be greatly appreciated.  Follow the link here .

Second chemo

 July 6th I had my second round of AC chemo (Adriamycin and cytoxin). I entered the appointment with a migraine that increasingly got worse. To the point where they didnt want to treat me and wanted to post-pone the chemo. They said all my vitals and blood work were good, so I told them to proceed. They pumped me full of nausea meds and steroids, which weren't helping, and gave me tylenol. I had a reaction to 1 or more of the drugs, and had to get a dose of benadryl, then more steroids. These 2 drugs combined knocked me out for a couple hours and when I finally woke up the migraine was gone. This treatment was suppose to take 2.5hrs. But with all the complications I was there for 5hrs and was one of the last patients to leave. 

Good news is, my recovery this time is going much better so far. No bone pain so far and less nausea.

Keep praying and keeping sending those Support Squad photos, my next chemo is July 19th.

I love you all but...

 I don't want to piss anyone off with this post, but something needs to be addressed. Many of my friends and family have never had cancer, so I don't expect you to understand. But it must be known that the worst thing you can ask a cancer patient is "How are you feeling?".  As my hilarious fellow cancer friend puts it: "I feel like shit. How do you think I feel?!". I have good days, and I have bad days, but overall chemo SUCKS.

I have been getting daily messages from loved ones asking me this very question. It gets overwhelming and exhausting explaining my daily condition to everyone. I am trying to stay positive throughout my treatment, and constantly talking about my symptoms, side effects and overall wellness is bringing me down. Don't misunderstand me, I love and appreciate that everyone is concerned about me and checking on me. This is not about one individual person, so don't take it personally. But there are better ways to go about showing that you care. 

If you want to know about my treatment and how it's going, the best thing you can do is follow my blog at pinkdaysahead.blogspot com. I post regular updates there. Otherwise, if you want to send me a message, send me funny memes/videos (I dont get offended easily), or just say "I'm thinking about you today" or "I'm praying for you". But please do not ask me how I'm feeling or how treatment is going!

If you want more details or don't have access to my blog, you can text my mom. She is more than happy to talk to people and has been advised on how much to share. Any close friends or relatives should have her cell phone #. 

Thank you for allowing me to vent. Do not stop caring, just do it differently please.

Chemo #1

 On Monday, June 21st, I had my first round of chemotherapy.  My mom and I entered the cancer center at 11am and there was so much hustle and bustle, no one realized I was there for my first treatment.  They were so busy, I was there for 4.5 hours, even though the infusions only took about 2 actual hours. I asked the nurse and she said it's like this all the time (It was not like this 8 years ago when I went through chemo).  So, unfortunately, I will not have the same nurse every time, like I did 8 years ago, which was really nice....times have changed. I did have a private room with a wall of windows over looking a nice little water fall and bird feeding area.  I had a cardinal come and visit 3 different times.

I started feeling nauseous and had a headache just a couple hours after my treatment on Monday.  I woke up Tuesday and felt great all day.  I ran errands and had normal energy. Then, Tuesday evening around 6:45p, my Neulasta On Pro was injected (to increase my white blood cells) and the bone pain started. Wed-Sat I was feeling bad.  Symptoms included, nausea, headache, bone pain, slight fever, major fatigue and just overall unwellness.  I will say, that the symptoms this time around are much more tolerable than they were 8 years ago, which is a blessing. My next treatment is Tues, July 6th.  Right now, I'm planning on working the day of treatment (until I have to leave for the appointment), working the day after treatment, and then taking the rest of the week off.  

I have received SO MANY cards, gift cards, flowers, gifts from my Amazon List, well wishes, prayers, texts, FB msgs, and phone calls. I appreciate every single one of them.  I have tried to individually respond to and thank each one of you. They mean the world to me!